and today's kindie moment: there's this boy in my class, yiwen, who's from ipoh (yay! fellow msian!) and who's very very VERY fair. he's super cute and extremely funny, but he can get really irritating at times with his complain king attitude at the uttermost. yes, but this kindie moment is not about him.

since term two began, his little sister zi yi came along, and she's just barely two. so today her teacher was doing singing, while the chinese teacher was busy cleaning up a boy who puked while crying (yes, all that i've heard at leader's meeting is coming true slowly, oh the horror). so zi yi was a little confused as to why none of her teachers were around her, so i went over to help out, since k2s technically should be able to erm help themselves. so it was the end of the standing-up song (meaning the song required the kids to all stand up, yes).

me: zi yi, let's sit down.
-stares-
me: come zi yi, sit down. -sits down-
ziyi: -happily plops herself onto my lap and makes me into her personal armchair-

yes, like my arms were the arms of the chair for her. and during prayer time, i closed my eyes and hands together, in hopes that she would copy me, as she had been doing for the greater part of assembly. wah, when i opened my eyes to check if she was praying, i just saw two very confused / amused eyes staring back right into mine haha. i wanted to laugh but i couldn't (prayer time remember, no more moo moo mrs. cow, yes).

so there ends my kindie moment of the day, probably the week.

i just had to write about it, it was so harrowing. no, not the kindie moment, it was the time after i got home from work. first, my mum and i rushed down to acsi to get my bro after reading his 2-hour overdue sms about him having fallend down, banged his head and feeling giddy, etc. then, after heading for piano lesson (he was feeling okay by then) and feeling giddy again, that was it, off he was to see the doctor. while i had to fight with the stupid wok and attempt to get dinner done in 20 minutes plus, eat (no swallow) dinner in 5 minutes, rush down and get the 7.12 bus so that i wouldn't be late for alumni.

and dang, i missed the bus. then it started to rain. omigay, and the next bus was 7.41, which meant that i'd be late. now in my entire ac life, i've only cabbed once to school from home, excluding this time. the last time was a lot dryer. this time was just... wet, and a lot more expensive. my bro's convinced that i got cheated, because there was like some 2 bucks surcharge, i figured it was for the wet weather, i wouldn't know, i hardly cab anyway. well, if he hadn't been so clumsy in the first place...

omigay, i was just shaking at the bus stop, realising that i was going to be oh-so-very late, that i had rushed down dinner for nothing, that i was going to be freaking cold in lt4 with no jacket. and i was just so... unsettled. i wanted to tell call someone and raar on the phone before i burst. i prayed for the 200 to come (i really did okay) and then it started pouring. haha come to think of it, i've never experienced worry at this level in a long time. really. must be the rain. must be the cold. must be the thought of all the work i have to do by this weekend. it's going to be mad.

i'm still feeling like i did when i was at the bus stop in the rain, but i think i've sort of calmed down a little taking the bus home with kristen, bumping into leo at 7/11, and taking a really slow walk back to the bus stop outside my house, where kristen and i talked until the next stupid 200 came. and reading this when i got home had some effect i guess:

"But when the wind hit me, after I trudged out of that cramp, stifling confluence of people, it was amazing. Refreshing, and if I dare say, life giving. Stirred up plenty delusions of cobbled streets, warm smells, fur coats, and people going somewhere, some place, in choreographed purposeful strides." - ken lim

so poetic, so beautiful. stirring.

but i think i'm still on the edge, especially when i think about what i have to face tomorrow with tutoring, hearing shuj's report about how terrible the horns sound. fye, save me! aieesh.

i'm so edgy tonight, i don't know if i'll sleep. probably from the fatigue yes.