alright, can't keep that post up for long, seems so childish. it's not good to hold such things to heart anyway. and i found the ant nest, another wooden box. stupid thing was, it wasn't some crap box i did for d and t, like the last time, but it's this nice jewellery box that i got some christmas ago. so, like ben pooi would say, what the crap nonsense. indeed.

anyway, the week's been fun, i think it's something to do with working in the kindie. i feel super relaxed and at home there. i was telling my mum, i have a super protected job environment this time. none of the real crap nonsense that the usual commericial jobs bring about. not very good, i've been too protected all my life. must be a contributing factor to my stupidity about some things haha.

then again, i think it's turned me out good in a sense. maybe not risk-taking, but safe. like i'm not as crazy as my cousin (haha sorry rach, if you're reading this). while we have so many things in common, we're so different.

i was talking to my mum about how i'm so scared of everything. like everytime i do something new / go some place that's not on homeground, i'm extremely nervous / stressed out sometimes. scared that i'll get lost / do something extremely stupid haha. i thought it was probably because i hardly went out, and i had never stayed out past sundown prior to my jc education. not that i couldn't (that's what my mum apparently says, but i think it's partially true haha), i just felt it was a waste of money and time sleeping (yes) going out when i didn't have anything to do. of course, things have changed, like how i spend every saturday lunch time out with the other tutors talking crap nonsense and getting to know my seniors and batchmates better (like the "aiya, all shuj's fault" day haha). come to think of it, i might somehow miss the tutoring days when they're over. not that i want to listen to rolls royce and sunrise for the rest of my life, please. i'll just miss the later part of saturday haha.

i found something extremely funny. a lot of television shows like to use the music from the incredibles, right down to dynamic korea, some random show on cna (and it was about ramen okay, weird), and channel five plays it like, at every special segment it shows. and everytime it plays, i'm reminded of lights camera action haha. a totally random fact, but it's probably because it's muse tomorrow, and after getting a sort of preview last week and feeling the excitement of the band, i'm quite hyped up myself (: good luck kids!

and looking at all the favourite terms that i'm learning from mostly band people (like what the crap nonsense, courtesy of ben pooi, and markky has credit for practically inspiring my favourite quotes from band people list), haha acjc band has taught me a lot. kind of like a well-rounded education hurhur